I’ll admit it. I’ve been allowing fear to slow me down. I’ve written a book that is practically complete, but the closer it gets to done, the slower I move.
I am not like the do-it-yourselfer who is so exhausted that she collapses in a heap before the last row of flooring is snapped in place. I’m not feeling worn out at all. What I am feeling is scared. There is a part of me that wants to leave the project, sneak out on the back porch and climb into my hammock for a long nap.
I’m afraid that no one will buy my book and that everyone will hate it. Funny how my two biggest fears cancel each other out, like how can they hate it if they refuse to buy it – whoever “they” are in the first place.
I’m aware this is happening, that I’m dragging my feet as I approach the launch of a book called “Keep Walking”. Oh the irony! And yet I haven’t taken the time to face it until yesterday.
I attended Christy Wright’s Business Boutique in Fort Worth, TX over the weekend and it was incredible. One of the sessions was on crushing fear. Christy shared her two biggest fears about the event to 1600 enthusiastic attendees – that no one would come and that everyone would leave disappointed. Sound familiar?
In our connection time after lunch, I sat with a group of women I’d never met and we shared our fears. I was listening to them and thinking, how did they get in my head? And I realized again, what I already know. The enemy of our soul uses the same sad song to lull each one of us to sleep. Here I am with 1600 woman who are pursuing their dreams, acting on their calling and equipping themselves with tools for success. Our dreams and callings are as different as honeybees and softball coaching and yet our fears are blatantly similar.
After we shared our fears, our next assignment was to speak the truth and the Holy Spirit thumbed through the Rolodex of scripture in my heart and pulled out this inspiring word:
we do not belong to those who shrink back and are destroyed, but to those who have faith and are saved. Hebrews 10:39 NIV
I shared it with the group. We are not those who shrink back! We will walk into fear and do it scared. We will be brave. We will believe. We will keep walking.
Afterward, I shared the passage with the friend I attended the event with and I cried. For real. I’m actually not much of a crier but it happened right there on Interstate 35 as we headed home to Austin. Because as I shared the passage again, I saw what was at stake. I saw the carnage of fear. Shrinking back brings destruction to our dreams. It paralyzes us, talks us out of starting, halts the building process and leaves us with a dusty pile of raw materials. The really sad part is that all those who would have found comfort and provision in our lived-out calling show up at an empty lot.
I can’t afford to shrink back. You can’t afford to shrink back. There is too much at stake!
What is your dream?
What are you building?
Whatever your dream or calling, it is worth fighting for! It is worth working hard. It is worth facing your biggest fear and choosing to believe.
The one who calls you is faithful, and he will do it. 1 Thessalonians 5:25 NIV